why do i care?

You know whats really funny? I know for a fact just from your actions that you dont care. But what do i do? i go deaf. I already know that actions speak louder than words but i guess im realizing it in this situation just a lil too late. I want you so bad it hurts. But i dont know what to do or say cause you chose another. I dont know how but somehow i know she aint as good as me. And she can never be. Cause im me. and thats all there is to it. I got my head on right. Im book smart. i even got a lil street smart. Im cultured. Im loving. Im supportive. Im everything a man could want but for some reason you dont see whats right there in front of your eyes. Dying to be held, dying to be kissed and loved. But when you finally do it will be too late because ill be next to the man who remembers every time he wakes up and every night when he dreams. Ill be next to the dude who would never for a second take my love and care for granted who would do things for me just because for no particular reason. I guess i expected you to compromise or whatever. and meet me halfway. but even that was a struggle. Maybe you were right, that i am too good for you. but until we meet again who knows? All i know is deep inside, i still care and i cant help myself nor do i want to. this feeling is too strong to ignore, it needs to be explored. But if not ill hit the door and say no more

Why?

Why is it that I cant forget about you?

Why is it that even though you did me wrong, I still love you?

Why do you still make me feel the same, even though things are different?

Why did you make me fall for you, knowing you were never going to catch me?

Why do you act so cold, when people try to be there for you?

I tried to be the one for you, to care about you, to be there for you, to love you, to hold you, to kiss you, to hug you.

But i guess that wasnt enough. You needed more of something i couldnt give you.

Security and confidence weren't in the cards you were dealt.

Even though my love for you was truly heartfelt.

You were my day time and my night.

I didnt know you that long but i knew that it felt right.

I knew i never felt that feeling before and i never wanted it to end.

But i guess you couldnt see me as more than a friend.

Maybe less than that.

I dont what it is about you, but i still care.

I dont know what it is but its still there.

The love i have for you wont ever die.

Even if the fact of the matter is it was all a lie.

Just random thoughts

All i know is, life will teach you in ways you never expected.

All i think is, why do things never turn out the way you plan?

All i do is for the betterment of myself even though i stumble and lose my place.

Why does it feel like im the only one who ever cares in a relationship?

Do i have some type of problem that i dont know about?

Am i too serious? Or too crazy? Or too smart?

That's probably it.

Im going places and reaching for stars in the milky way when these dudes are so close to the bottom they can't even see me.

I guess i intimidate them.

I guess they cant handle me.

I know im too good.

I know i have high standards.

But without standards what do you get?

They say you get what you pay for.

So i want quality.

I want a good man who has values, morals and respect for himself.

I want a man who is loving, caring, and genuinely interested in me.

I want an intelligent, funny, and compassionate man .

I want a real man.

All i know is im worth it.

All im saying is if they cant handle it, step off.

All i think is its just their fear and stupidity

All i want is to be loved.