**More randoms from your girl Am

Ok so i been thinkin alot lately and these are some questions/thoughts going through my head. let me know if you ever felt like this.(9X/10 you probably have)

1) Ok, why do some men say they like you but when you try to conversate its hopeless?

2) Why do some men say they want you, but when they get you they cant handle you or seem to be intimidated by your aspirations/goals in life. Or by your achievements in general?

3) Why do some men feel some type of way about not being the center of attention in your life?

4) Why do some men who are either too old or too young, or out of your league try to talk to you?

5) Why do some men expect you to call but they hardly ever pick up the phone?


To take it in another direction:

6) Why does it seem like i slept fine the first two years of school, but this year that all went downhill? LOL (Im nappin like crazy).

7)Why does it seem like all i can think about is school nonstop and im bordering on bein obsessed with time management?

8)Why is JR year so hard period?

9) Why do i feel as though id rather work for chump change than be broke? ( i mean i could make more but lets face it im too lazy to look for another job right now LOL)

10) Why do i feel like being a little kid right now, even though i need to face facts that graduation is a year away?

**Well theres way more where this came from but this is all i could come up with off the top of my head for now. Tell me what yall think. Peace, Joy and Love.

~+Seriously Overdue, but here i am+~

Hey yall I know its been a hot minute(2 months to be exact), but your girl is back. And i have a lot to say. In such a short period of time, i have gone through so much and grown even more. I learned things i wont ever forget. I've seen and done things that i've never done before. I'm working on myself(physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, etc etc). I'm moving and running so much thats all it seems i have time for. And for some strange reason, thats so hard to understand. It shouldn't be but it is. But i get it. If im at school or at work or doing something else all the time, that throws a monkey wrench in whatever trick you got up your sleeve(im not sayin all of yall are like that(men)). But i dont do what i do to irk anyone or ignore anyone intentionally. I do this for me. So i wont starve or be homeless. I do this for me so i can have some peace of mind, happiness,and independence in the future. My philosophy is if i work hard now, i can play later. Ill endure a little bit of pain for now to enjoy a pleasurable life later. In other words, as i'm always saying, my time is money so don't waste it. Thats why i would rather cut through all the crap when i meet people and try to figure out what your agenda is. But some of yall dont make it that easy. I gotta stick around for a while and be Sherlock to figure yall out. I gotta stick around long enough to figure out we not on the same page about anything instead of you tellin me up front. Thats the one thing i cant stand these days is that people don't respect time anymore. I despise the fact that when i had time, there was nobody to be found, but as soon as i get busy people want a piece of the clock. It dont work like that though. To avoid all the drama, i would rather immerse myself in work and school and home than waste my time b/c 9x out of 10,what im working towards is far more important than what you're doing( i.e.: nothing, only have a dead end job, or you're not even interested in getting anything beyond a high school diploma(besides hustlin)). Im just at the point in my life where as far as im concerned relationships come and go. However, at the end of the day its just me and i need to be the best me i can be to be with somebody else(you cant be a mess mentally and be in a relationship, that only hurts them and wastes their time). Well thats my piece and yall will hear from me soon. Peace, Joy, and Love.