Its been a long time!

Hey world !I know its been a long long time since i wrote. I have been working hard and havent really had to much to say. Until now that is. I have a question for you. How many people out there want to save money? I have been on a money saving mission these past few months and if you want I will show you how to save up to $40 a week at the supermarket. Its not hard to save at all. In fact it can be fun. There are just a few simple rules to follow. Ill leave you with just one hint. It comes in the paper every wk and all you need to do is get out your scissors! Start couponing folks! You will save a bundle. In the weeks to come I will be discussing this more frequently. Seeing as how the economy has changed so drastically. It excites me more to save money now and days than to spend it. Seriously! Well thats all for now.

I just wanna be

I just wanna be happy. Is that too much to ask? Im not looking for bucketloads of cash. I wanna be my own person & discover my destiny. I just wanna explore all the possibilities. I just wanna be free. Free to be me. A woman without inhibitions, reservations, or regrets. A woman who listens to suggestions but dares to care less. Because she knows her heart. She knows her soul. She knows that god gave her a different role. Something extraordinary is just over the horizon. But she cant see it yet. The sky is cloudy and the road ahead is wet. Yet she keeps going slow and steady. In search of a dream, hoping that she finds her way. To a place where she can finally be, free.

updates!! Just my thoughts

I always said i wouldnt be one of those people. You know the ones who never accomplish anything. But look at me now. I feel like im going down the wrong road and i cant turn around. Either way i go its going to be hard. You see i subscribe to the school of thought that you make a way out of no way & that theres more than one way to get somewhere in life. Other people dont see it that way though. I see it as grinding. They see it as struggle. But ive learned the hard way already that things dont always go the way you want. Ideally i would crawl in a hole and never come out but this clock called life keeps ticking no matter what. There is no pause button. I know theres a way to follow my heart and be successful. I know that if i work hard ill get what i want out of life some of the time. But first i gotta get in the race.

Me in 2011

Hey blogland. I know i have been gone for a long time. A lot has happened since i last wrote. For one im a senior in nursing school, which is no easy feat. Im also 21 now. Thats write your girl is grown&sexy now. With the grace of god I will graduate with my Bachelor's of Science in Nursing in May. That means ill be out in the real world. I'll have to start making way more decisions for myself. I'll have to rely a little less on my parents and become more independent. I'll have to change for the better and try my best to make something of myself. So that my family can be proud. So that my late grandmother, grandfather and great uncle can be proud. Only god knows how much i miss them. There isnt a day that passes that i dont think of them. I really wish they could have seen me graduate. However, i know i have three guardian angels watching over me eternally. I know they would be happy. As far as i have come, at times i still feel as though i have a long way to go. I doubt myself way too much. I feel lonely. I feel scared of what is to come. I feel so many emotions. I only hope that i can be all i hope to be and more. I really dont think i can be successful until i believe in myself though. It all starts with me. Well thats all for now. Hope to write again soon. When a thought comes to mind that is. Peace, Joy, and Love.

Update----->

Hey everyone out there in blogland. SOrry i havent been keeping up with this blog. But lifes been very hectic. Im bout to be a senior in nursing school. Im working 3 days a week & i still have to have time for me. lol. Enough about that. Lets get to the thoughts i had in mind.

>> We all know today is fathers day. So i must pay homage to my own dad. Without him, i dont know where i would be. We dont always get along, but i love him to death and i know he loves me. So happy father's day to all the good fathers out there, biological, adopted, the moms who have to be dads too, etc. You are all appreciated. Hope you enjoyed your day.


++ Now i may be late but im just hearing Lyfe Jenning's new song Statistics. I most say it is the truth and its very profound. There were a couple of lyrics that stood out to me. But the one that i would like to share with you and keep in mind is, "be the person you wanna find. Don't be a nickel out here lookin' for a dime. No truer words have been spoken. I truly believe i need to practice what hes preaching. If i want a real man, i should strive to be a real woman. If i want an educated man, i should try to acquire as much knowledge as i can. If i want a man who is hardworking i must work hard myself and stop being lazy. If i want a man who is compassionate, loyal, funny, trustworthy, honest, and much much more, i must find it in my heart to be such a person. I really think this song could not have come at a better time. I mean i have been told this before. However, now for some reason, my eyes are open to the truth. Its up to me to embrace it or keep being the way i am. Im at a low point in my life. I afraid to be alone. I crave attention. I think im just in love with being in love. I need to let love find me. But first i need to find myself and be in love with that person if that makes any sense. But toodles for now. just wanted to say that tidbit. Hopefully ill update again soon.

why

Wrote this a few days ago, last week to be exact. It's still relevant though...



1) is it just me or is everybody a texter now and days? what happened to the days when a cell phone was actually used as a phone, not just for txting? To me it just seems like the people who say this would rather limit their exchanges to 160 characters or less. Is that because they really dont like talkin? Is that because they might say something they'll regret? or is it because they simply dont know how to hold a conversation/dont feel you're worth they time/nrg to talk to on the phone?

2) Why do people give out their number so quickly/ask for yours so quickly and then barely use it, only send chain letters, or text at random times?

3) Why do people call you/or you call them and they're on hush mouth and their only excuse is b/c they are a quiet person. Which means you are left with the daunting task of leading the whole conversation? I mean sometimes i understand as women we have to take the initiative to get the convo started but shouldnt men talk at some point too? Shouldnt yall be able to offer up a substantial view point/perspective/thought?

4) Why do people text and only reply with one letter/word? That irks my soul.

5)Why do people take so long to respond to a txt/email/im sometimes. That also annoys me.

6) What is up with the total disregard for being grammatically correct. Ok ill give you a couple misspelled words, but dont destroy the english language.

7) Whats up with people wanting certain kinds of pics/certain number of pic msgs/day?

8) Dont you hate when people send you the same text like a million times?

9) I hate when you call somebody and they dont pick up but as soon as you hang up, they txt you or you txt and they respond.( or when you miss a call and as soon as you try to call back, you get the voicemail)

10) I hate when people have long irritating voicemail messages.

Well i could probably go on for days about communication pet peeves such as the ones listed above, but im done for now. I know they have like a million groups/pages about this kinda thing but i just had to get this off my chest from a personal standpoint.

Deuces until next time. Peace, Joy, and LOVe

Whirlwind(so many things on my mind...)

Well so many things have been on my mind lately. So now im gonna share them with you.
1) I hate when people dont have patience. I mean is it gonna kill you to wait for a few minutes?

2) I hate days when i am running from start to finish. I honestly dont think i have it in me to do that. in other words, im kinda lazy LOL.

3) I hate that some people dont study one bit and ace a test, but i have to study all week to achieve the same grade or better.

4) I hate that men are so hard to decode sometimes.

5) I hate arrogant people.

6) I'm so tired of feeling like i give my all in a situation only to end up hurt or disappointed.

7) I hate that im not a morning person, but people say the early bird gets the worm.

8) I hate that life throws us curveballs and we have to duck.

9) I hate that some people are so wishy washy and dont know what they want.

10) I hate that im so diligent in some areas of my life, but negligent in others.

11) I hate when people add me on social networks but then they on hushmouth forever.

12) I hate when i delete people who dont talk to me or who are beneath me( as far as mentality) on social networks and then they wanna request me again. (as if i would add you again. you didnt talk then, you wont talk now)(only applies in some situations).

13)I hate that i seem to attract bad boy types, but the good boys that i attract turn out to be duds and a waste of time(not all).

14) I hate that i have such a bad sweet tooth(bad for my health but good for the soul LOL).

15) I wish that i could find one guy who understood me for the most part, accepted me and stuck around for a while(and i could understand, accept and stick around to be with him)(i mean am i really that bad? )

16) I wish that life wasnt so complicated.

17) I wish that things would go my way more often, but they dont.

18)I wish i could graduate right now.

19) I wish i could make good money doing what i really love(writing).

20) I wish more people would keep it real.

21) I wish I could be more independent.

22) I wish I could see my extended family more.

23) I wish i was more confident in my abilities.

24) I wish septa would stop this strike.

25) I wish i could find a good book to read.

26) I wish i could stop procrastinating.

27) I wish i could take a vacation.

28)I wish i could grow more spiritually/mentally/emotionally.

29) I like that i have standards but sometimes that backfires.

30) I like that i can say whats on my mind, without hesitation most of the time.

31) I like that I am becoming more outgoing.

32) I like that i'm doing something with my life.

33) I like that i'm so mature(in some aspects).

34) I like that i put myself first.

35)I like that im a caring person.

36) I like that im knowledgeable about things.

37) I like that im considerate.

38)I like that i have loving, supportive parents.

39) I like that i dont take bs( i have a boiling point).

40)I like that i refuse to settle for mediocrity.

41) I like that im my own person.

42) I like that im funny.

Well theres probably more floating around in my cerebrum but ill stop here. Thats good enough. LOL Peace, Joy and Love.