why do i care?

You know whats really funny? I know for a fact just from your actions that you dont care. But what do i do? i go deaf. I already know that actions speak louder than words but i guess im realizing it in this situation just a lil too late. I want you so bad it hurts. But i dont know what to do or say cause you chose another. I dont know how but somehow i know she aint as good as me. And she can never be. Cause im me. and thats all there is to it. I got my head on right. Im book smart. i even got a lil street smart. Im cultured. Im loving. Im supportive. Im everything a man could want but for some reason you dont see whats right there in front of your eyes. Dying to be held, dying to be kissed and loved. But when you finally do it will be too late because ill be next to the man who remembers every time he wakes up and every night when he dreams. Ill be next to the dude who would never for a second take my love and care for granted who would do things for me just because for no particular reason. I guess i expected you to compromise or whatever. and meet me halfway. but even that was a struggle. Maybe you were right, that i am too good for you. but until we meet again who knows? All i know is deep inside, i still care and i cant help myself nor do i want to. this feeling is too strong to ignore, it needs to be explored. But if not ill hit the door and say no more