Thoughts....>

OOOh you dont know my name and i swear it feels like ooohhhh you dont know my name LOL> i was watchin the throwback you dont know my name by alicia keys. I had to type that.. LOL I love that song. But anyway. Its Wednesday again so im back with another one Lets just get to it.

1) Im so ready for this semester to be over. I have like 6 tests, a project, a lab report, a case study and a quiz all in the next few weeks. And on top of that i have a concert this sunday and im goin to be in a poetry cafe next wednesday :-). I think i might be getting over my nervousness in that respect. Like i dont even close my eyes anymore when i say my poems, i just try to make eye contact with the audience. I feel so good when i get up there and just say it. I love my poems. I think they are hot,however i cant waiT til next wednesday is over so i can stop saying them LOL.

2) Im kinda annoyed right now b/c i have to study nursing all night, however i dont feel like it. Im not focused. i was focused earlier but it seems like everytime i come back from dinner i dont feel like doin anything. I guess thats the -'itis getting to me LOL. Oh well, ill get focused eventually, i always do.

3) Life is okay, but im ready for a serious break. Nursing school is taking over my life. All im doing this summer is one day of cpr certification and then im gon get that work in babY LOL. Im ready to be employed again. Even though i would rather crawl into bed and not come out until like 2 days before fall semester starts. LOL.

4) BET is getting cornier by the minute LOL. The only good thing on 106 & Park is Wild Out Wednesday and Freestyle Friday, the rest of the wk is dry as the sahara. LOL. The only thing worth payin attention other than that is the good videos. And videos are gonna be extinct soon too.

5) random moment: hop up out the bedddd turn my swaggg onnn, take a look in the mirror say whats up....yeah...gettin money...LOL the song is empty except for the hook LOL. Thats the only part worth listening to. But its okay if you like that kinda thing.

6) Well im kinda bored. I wish i could sleep but nope, thats out of the question.

7)Yo...im seriously gon try not to be hype when day 26 come up here next wk. I love them. They have some original songs that are hot. LOL. Not many groups are hot these days. That will be a well needed break. and i know i better get there early or risk not having a seat at all. LOL.

8) OH yeah another thing, this rain is in the way. Its like it rains every single day. Its kinda gloomy. But it is good sleeping weather, If i coulD sleeP LOL. I wish it would stop. This weather is not characteristic of spring at all.

9) The other day i was thinking about my goals in life. And i have established some, but its about time i revise them and update them. I also need to work on bringing those goals to fruition. And today at dinner my friends were having an interesting convo, and that made me think too. I was like dag what are my goals? I need to seriously have some concrete goals and start thinking about my future. I need to think beyond tomorrow. Because in reality, if you fail to plan, you plan to fail.

10) I need to pray and maybe just maybe ill make it to may 6th. LOL. i just gotta believe in myself and study hard.

11) Omg man i still think thats so sad that aaliyah had to die. i know if she was alive today, she would still be at the top of the charts. she has some hot songs...like if first you dont succeed, dust yourself off and try again....LOL. I love that song..the throwback video just came on.

12)Yo....im so hype right now. LOL. I guess its the music getting into my system LOL.

13) I miss some of my old peoples but since they dont seem to miss me...oh well. You cant waste time worrying about people who dont care about you. Life goes on.

14) I better start studyin soon before im up til like 4am. Its that crucial LOL.

Well thats enough randomness for one day. See yall later.

More of my thoughts.......

Well its friday again and you know what that means. Another blog from me. No bs, just realism and whatever thoughts come to mind. Yall know how i do. Lets get to it.

1) Well i know ive said this before but im so happy its the wknd. It has been a long week. But by no means does that mean i get to totally relax. I have a test in less than two wks, in foundations, one of my hardest classes. So all wknd, im gonna be busy tryna keep up with that. Just 3 more weeks.

2) Im so bored right now its not even funny. Well i have a birthday comin up, and maybe just maybe things will get a lil more exciting. Ill be the big 2-0 in about 5 months!! Lets see what that brings. My mama steady sayin she cant believe that its been twenty yrs since i was born. LOL. she probably wants me to be a baby forever. LOL. Shoot at this point in time, i wouldnt mind. Life is hard when you get grown. People, including me, always say i cant wait to be grown but what we all fail to realize is that, it doesnt get easier, it just gets harder. More responsibility, stress, heartache, and more stuff to do. Its a never ending cycle with no breaks. Because whether you're ready or not life goes on, it waits for noone.

3) I never realized just how much i love watchin movies. Its like movies, well particularly romantic comedies, take you to another world, because in cinema, it seems like things always end up the way that they want. And we all know that doesnt happen in real life, so its nice to live in a fantasy world for 2 or 3 hrs and get a break from real life where you arent likely to get what you want most of the time.

4) There are many days when i just wanna curl up in bed and do nothing. But i know that when i give up, im not only hurting myself, im hurting my family and the ones that come after me. So that, my faith in god, and the fact that im determined to be somebody and have my own, instead of being a bum and living at home forever, keeps me going. I have two more years so i might as well study hard, have fun and make the most of this opportunity that many people arent so blessed to partake in.

5) Its funny how im getting so much attention lately. Like there was a time when i didnt get compliments everyday, but now thats an every day occurrence, and despite the fact that i now readily acknowledge the truth of their words(well they are true most of the time LOL), my cynicism and my intuition deters me from entirely giving in. Im just trying not to get hurt and im tired of lies. So since its hard to distinguish btwn those who really care and those who are just out to get some, i would rather play it cool, stay neutral and do me. Now when a man comes along that can show me that i shouldnt be this way and he has a valid reason for being interested, then maybe ill change my mind. But just as there are no guarantees in life, i dont make any guarantees either.

6) Music is my lifeline. It keeps me sane, its creative, versatile, rhythmic, consistent, real, truthful,reliable, interesting, and easy to relate to. I may have said this before but its the truth so whatever. LOL.

7)Im bored. I should go back to school. Its so boring here, the only thing to do is sleep, eat, watch tv or be on the pC, at least i can walk around campus at school LOL.

8) Why are they playin all these throwbacks on the radio? I mean they are oldies and goodies, but seriously though? LOL

9) I cant wait to start workin this summer. im tired of being broke LOL. too bad i have to take cpr classes too..LOL i never get a break :-( but like everybody says it will pay off in the long run. I guess later on i can take a break, and have lovely vacations at some sunny beach resort LOL.

10) Still wondering......but oh well. i guess i should just forget it.

Well thats where im at. see yall next wk.

Just my thoughts....

Well i can never find any good quotes so if you been paying attention, you know im done doing Q.O.T.W., and lately i cant find any really good lyrics so im done with L.I.F. too i guess LOL. If anything yall will hear the latest songs on my page as usual LOL. In case yall didnt know i treat that playlist like a ipod..LOL. Anyway...on to some things that are on my mind.

1) Im so glad i finally got a B on a micro test. I guess now i know what it takes to pass. I have to actually read, and review thoroughly for that class instead of being lazy LOL. It just seems like me and sleep wont be seeing much of each other, studying is my life and, i can never have any real breaks, b/c just when i take a break, something else comes up for me to do.

2) I love poetry. It allows me to express myself freely and it's so much fun to hear people's feedback. I just hope i can get over my nerves and deliver my poems well b/c im supposed to perform in like 3 weeks. I think i can do it. I just have to stop thinking about it so much. LOL

3) Im so bored. I know what i could be doing, but do i really wanna fry my brain even more? Seriously my head is killing me from all that cramming. And its not like i can help it because thats how the syllabus goes for these classes.

4)Life is better when you are independent. It really is. When you are independent, it seems like nothing phases you, you dont have to worry about what others are doing, and you can just do you, which is the best thing to do b/c in the end you're the only one left anyway.

5) I wish i was on a break right now. Too bad my break was a month ago. LOL. I really could use one right about now. Nothin to stress over, nothing to do, no deadlines, no worries. Well maybe that will happen, um, when i graduate LOL.

6) I wish the caf would have some real food. The stuff they have is a pathetic excuse for food. Seriously. It only tastes good like once in a blue moon.

7) Maybe this summer i will take a break and just get this CPr certification, and work. Then i can just juggle the extra free elective during spring of my junior year. I mean they say you should get those out of the way, however i wanna have at least one class i like, and i want my summer off LOL.

8) Im really enjoyin the single life. But i really do wish i could find a good man that could be consistent and keep it real with me. However, at this point, i dont even know if i have time to keep up with a relationship. School is too hectic. And i barely have time for sleep and chillin, so how would i have time for a man? I guess i'll just chill out. I also believe that this time alone is helping me grow. I can really see the differences in myself.

9) I wanna do something fun. But idk what to do. Life is so boring, it needs some spice, pronto. LOL

10) I miss the days when life was simple, it also seemed more exciting somehow then. LOL.

Well thats where i am, im growing up, im living and learning more everyday, im tired and bored, and well thats about it for this wk. See yall later.

Q.O.T.W.(just randoms)

Lets just jump into the thoughts LOL.

1) Im so bored right now its not even funny. And i know i got a test to study for but im not even focused. I think i might take a nap b/c im tired and then study all night until the morning. Because i gotta pass this test and i want a B for once in this class. Its really one of those take the 75 and run classes. But i wanna finish strong LOL. So im gonna do what it takes to get that grade.

2)I love music. Since men aren't that consistent right now, thats my boyfriend LOL. It never lets me down.

3)I am so happy to see the wknd this week. It has been a long week. And i really just wanna sleep but i can tell that might not happen all weekend LOL. seriously.

4) I love these movies man....Getting played and movies like two can play that game are the truth. They do the kinda stuff that i wish i could get away with in real life. LOL.

5) Next semester is no joke. This is officially my last semester to slack. The time for chilling is over. Its gonna be my junior year and i have all nursing classes and i have clinicals. I dont know how im gonna make it but god willing i will because i came this far and i cant turn back now. If i just believe in myself i can do anything. From now here on out, i ReallY dont have a life. Shoot, certain people thought i was busy before and its only gonna get worse so me and my books are gonna be real good friends...shoot they might replace music as my bf. LOL

6) Life is good right about now. Certain aspects of my life could be a lil better but im dealing.

7)Im so glad that the right person won the Free Style Friday finale. He is so cute LOL and hes creative and original. Now the other rapper was original too, however he was a lil too specific when he was gettin on the winner and i think that was his downfall, he wasnt generic enough. But really, they were both cute, but the winner was the better lyricist and it showed. I cant wait til he comes out with a Cd. he is fire. LOL

8)Ill be so happy when may of double 1 gets here. I really cant wait to graduate. I really like school. Its just that it makes me so tired and keeps me so busy. But in the long run its gonna pay off and if i get reimbursed, im coming back for a masters and possibly another bachelors. And im also gonna have to take continuing ed anyway so ill never get away from school really. I guess thats not such a bad thing though, ill be really, really, smart. LOL.

9)I want a wrap again, braids get nappy too fast LOL. Im just tryna let my hair grow a lil more first. But i know when i finally get a wrap again, my hair is gonna be butter and hopefully healthier. LOL.

10)I really wish that i knew why certain people act like they do. Even though i know i shouldnt care b/c they dont care about me. I guess i have my answer they dont care.

Well thats it. Im bored, tired and stressed all at the same time. And theres so many thoughts runnin through my head but im just gon keep those to myself. Thats too much for a blog LOL.

L.I.F(randoms instead)

Well yall, its been a long day. Sorry im late but i had mad fun doing what i was doing. LOL Anyway, im too lazy to look for songs so here goes another random.

1) I had a really good day. Things started out blah but the day ended on a lovely note. But here is where the day goes back to blah i got some stuff to do. In order to pass, i best get started so i can get to bed before the morning.

2) Im actually starting not to dread lab day so much. I guess im getting used to it like a friend who's a year ahead of me said. But i know what i am dreading, registration. I have got to get the classes i want or ill be mad all over again. This better not be a repeat of the registration for this semester. I only got 3 of the 6 classes i had to take whEN i wanted them.

3) Well im really growing up. A lot of things that would have bothered me before are starting not to phase me. I dont think much can erase this smile off my face. Im feeling good.

4) College is cool but you know what would make it so much better? If work and reading was eliminated and we had free reign to procrastinate and do what we pleased. LOL Yeah right like that will ever happen. But what if somebody created a college like that and no matter how old you were, you could kinda check in whenever life got to be too much and just feel free to procrastinate.

5) Music is so addictive and no matter how much or what im listenin to, it never seems to get old. It can always make me dance and feel good and it just takes me to another world where nothing even matters. LOL speakin of that..i love that song by LAuryn hill. she can sing her butt off..LOL.

6) This semester is like so gone, LOL. We only have five wks but it still seems like theres so much time left at the same time. If that makes any sense. I want it to be over, but at the same time, i have at least one class to take this summer, which will take up 6 wks of my summer and i want to work, and then school will start all over again before i know it so im not really looking forward to all that. I guess i just have to deal with the fact that from here on out, as much as i hate it, there wont be many more breaks for me. Its time to grow up and be busy all the time.

7) Every now and then i find myself thinking about the past and what could have been or what could still be but then i realize that the past is just that, the past and it should stay that way. Unless fate decides against it.

8) Im so happy to be better. That sick stuff wasnt workin for me. LOL. So from now on, even though its kinda hard to get a good nights sleep and not study my life away, im gon try to get more sleep b/c lets face it i love sleep, and im gonna take more breaks so i wont go insane or get sick again. LOL

9) Right now im just chillin, but i know sooner or later, i have to be productive for the remainder of the day b/c this stuff wont complete itself. LOL

10)I love blogging. LOL its so much fun to be random and say whatever i please.

Well ive said enough. Thats where im at though, im growin up, im keepin it real, im living and learning and enjoying school as hard as it is. LOL Im just living my life like its golden LOL. See yall next wk.