More of my thoughts.......

Well its friday again and you know what that means. Another blog from me. No bs, just realism and whatever thoughts come to mind. Yall know how i do. Lets get to it.

1) Well i know ive said this before but im so happy its the wknd. It has been a long week. But by no means does that mean i get to totally relax. I have a test in less than two wks, in foundations, one of my hardest classes. So all wknd, im gonna be busy tryna keep up with that. Just 3 more weeks.

2) Im so bored right now its not even funny. Well i have a birthday comin up, and maybe just maybe things will get a lil more exciting. Ill be the big 2-0 in about 5 months!! Lets see what that brings. My mama steady sayin she cant believe that its been twenty yrs since i was born. LOL. she probably wants me to be a baby forever. LOL. Shoot at this point in time, i wouldnt mind. Life is hard when you get grown. People, including me, always say i cant wait to be grown but what we all fail to realize is that, it doesnt get easier, it just gets harder. More responsibility, stress, heartache, and more stuff to do. Its a never ending cycle with no breaks. Because whether you're ready or not life goes on, it waits for noone.

3) I never realized just how much i love watchin movies. Its like movies, well particularly romantic comedies, take you to another world, because in cinema, it seems like things always end up the way that they want. And we all know that doesnt happen in real life, so its nice to live in a fantasy world for 2 or 3 hrs and get a break from real life where you arent likely to get what you want most of the time.

4) There are many days when i just wanna curl up in bed and do nothing. But i know that when i give up, im not only hurting myself, im hurting my family and the ones that come after me. So that, my faith in god, and the fact that im determined to be somebody and have my own, instead of being a bum and living at home forever, keeps me going. I have two more years so i might as well study hard, have fun and make the most of this opportunity that many people arent so blessed to partake in.

5) Its funny how im getting so much attention lately. Like there was a time when i didnt get compliments everyday, but now thats an every day occurrence, and despite the fact that i now readily acknowledge the truth of their words(well they are true most of the time LOL), my cynicism and my intuition deters me from entirely giving in. Im just trying not to get hurt and im tired of lies. So since its hard to distinguish btwn those who really care and those who are just out to get some, i would rather play it cool, stay neutral and do me. Now when a man comes along that can show me that i shouldnt be this way and he has a valid reason for being interested, then maybe ill change my mind. But just as there are no guarantees in life, i dont make any guarantees either.

6) Music is my lifeline. It keeps me sane, its creative, versatile, rhythmic, consistent, real, truthful,reliable, interesting, and easy to relate to. I may have said this before but its the truth so whatever. LOL.

7)Im bored. I should go back to school. Its so boring here, the only thing to do is sleep, eat, watch tv or be on the pC, at least i can walk around campus at school LOL.

8) Why are they playin all these throwbacks on the radio? I mean they are oldies and goodies, but seriously though? LOL

9) I cant wait to start workin this summer. im tired of being broke LOL. too bad i have to take cpr classes too..LOL i never get a break :-( but like everybody says it will pay off in the long run. I guess later on i can take a break, and have lovely vacations at some sunny beach resort LOL.

10) Still wondering......but oh well. i guess i should just forget it.

Well thats where im at. see yall next wk.