I just wanna be

I just wanna be happy. Is that too much to ask? Im not looking for bucketloads of cash. I wanna be my own person & discover my destiny. I just wanna explore all the possibilities. I just wanna be free. Free to be me. A woman without inhibitions, reservations, or regrets. A woman who listens to suggestions but dares to care less. Because she knows her heart. She knows her soul. She knows that god gave her a different role. Something extraordinary is just over the horizon. But she cant see it yet. The sky is cloudy and the road ahead is wet. Yet she keeps going slow and steady. In search of a dream, hoping that she finds her way. To a place where she can finally be, free.

updates!! Just my thoughts

I always said i wouldnt be one of those people. You know the ones who never accomplish anything. But look at me now. I feel like im going down the wrong road and i cant turn around. Either way i go its going to be hard. You see i subscribe to the school of thought that you make a way out of no way & that theres more than one way to get somewhere in life. Other people dont see it that way though. I see it as grinding. They see it as struggle. But ive learned the hard way already that things dont always go the way you want. Ideally i would crawl in a hole and never come out but this clock called life keeps ticking no matter what. There is no pause button. I know theres a way to follow my heart and be successful. I know that if i work hard ill get what i want out of life some of the time. But first i gotta get in the race.

Me in 2011

Hey blogland. I know i have been gone for a long time. A lot has happened since i last wrote. For one im a senior in nursing school, which is no easy feat. Im also 21 now. Thats write your girl is grown&sexy now. With the grace of god I will graduate with my Bachelor's of Science in Nursing in May. That means ill be out in the real world. I'll have to start making way more decisions for myself. I'll have to rely a little less on my parents and become more independent. I'll have to change for the better and try my best to make something of myself. So that my family can be proud. So that my late grandmother, grandfather and great uncle can be proud. Only god knows how much i miss them. There isnt a day that passes that i dont think of them. I really wish they could have seen me graduate. However, i know i have three guardian angels watching over me eternally. I know they would be happy. As far as i have come, at times i still feel as though i have a long way to go. I doubt myself way too much. I feel lonely. I feel scared of what is to come. I feel so many emotions. I only hope that i can be all i hope to be and more. I really dont think i can be successful until i believe in myself though. It all starts with me. Well thats all for now. Hope to write again soon. When a thought comes to mind that is. Peace, Joy, and Love.