Well today i couldnt really think of any Lyrics Im Feeling..so i figured id just write and see where this takes me. LOL. Well i dont know if yall would read it, but im thinkin about doing a post similar to the one about my definition of a good man. But instead, ill tell what i think my def of a real man is. Hmm im contemplatin it right now, it will be up soon if i decide to write it.
+Today was so exhausting.. i mean im not really actively involved on campus, but sometimes there are a lot of meetings and it wears me out. I mean i only had two meetings and i went to one but whew is my head hurting and i feel drained. And the bad part is that tomorrow will be worse. Its my lab day, which i absolutely dread, but its so interesting at the same time LOL.
+ Im still struggling with being motivated man. Some days i sit in class and i think..why in the world did i pick this major? To tell the truth, everything kinda occurred on a whim. It came time to pick out colleges , and i just went through the alphabet and looked at a couple. I did know that i didnt want to go too far away or too close, but beyond that , i didnt have a clue. I just clicked on my school and looked it over and decided that it and Nursing were an okay choice. But looking back i wonder would i have enjoyed an HBCU down south better? then again my perception of those schools is that they may not be as challenging or it will be boring b/c everybody is my color.(i know thats probably not true though, they have a rich heritage and the people may be totally different from what i expect even though we share the same skin color; and i know its probably tougher because its an all black school and the pressure is so much greater to succeed and do well not only for yourself but for the sake of your people as a whole.) But anyway i really like this school, im comfortable here and the people are cool for the most part, and its really diverse, which has taught me so many things. And to be honest, nursing isnt bad you just have to focus and really want it. right now i dont have any papers and i just have tests so its extremely boring. thats my problem. Its been a lovely experience for me so far, ive gained so much, such as independence, maturity, confidence, friendship, social skills, and the list could go on forever. I love college, i cant wait to graduate though LOL.
+Life is great. But one question still boggles me. Why do men act the way they do and why do they like me more from what they see on the computer, than men do in person? its like im nonexistent in reality. LOL. i guess its the way i dress and the fact that i stay to myself in my own world sometimes. But yeah it amazes me so much that somebody could like me on the conputer but noone even notices in person. Anyway i have a man...who i love very much so that shouldnt matter. He noticed LOL. But sometimes i still dont know. I love him so much though...its like no matter what happens my love is always there...i cant help it. He makes me happy.
+I need to really get myself together. Wardrobe, attitude, license, god, school, health, the whole nine. Sometimes i forget that life isnt like a plane, i cant be on autopilot, i have to actively participate to make it the life i want it to be. I cant sit back and complain and expect things to change, i have to work at being a better person and i have to pray about it and just try. B/c if you try, nobody can take that from you.
+I maybe crazy for this, but im still in awe that we have a black president. I am so proud to see this day come and one day, when i get married and have kids, i cant wait to tell them about it. I just hope he can live up to everyones expectations and accomplish what he wants to accomplish. People are already hard on him and he hasnt even been there a month yet. People need to chill and just let him do what he has to do. This mess wasnt created overnight so it wont be solved over night.
+I just realized something about me, LOL i have grown alot. I really have. But sometimes, i do backslide and everybody does. I mean i speak my mind, i interact with others, i do what i say im goin to do(most of the time LOL), im informed, im cute, im intuitive(i can read people like a book lately), im trying not to be so shy...LOL. well that about sums up the growth i think...for now at least LOL
+Well i dont really have much else to say. back to procrastinating and relaxing LOL
ill be back soon with more like this..show your girl some love and let me know what yall think... PS: my thoughts have no end so i might be back before the night is out LOL
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