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Life is goin great. Im so blessed and it's about time i realize it. I just got my learner's permit today. So hopefully by the end of this summer i'll have my license and yet another skill under my belt. I also got rehired at my old job today. I start next week. So the boredom spell is over for now. But sooner or later i know ill start getting tired of having somewhere to be. LOL. So june will consist of work, julyand most of august will consist of micro lab and work and then last not but least, i still have the daunting task of preparing for Jr YR. LOL. So i cant say that im bored anymore. I have a lot to occupy my time.

Anyway in other news, I have been a little fed up lately. People are so inconsistent. If you are gonna add me talk and be able to hold a decent conversation. I mean theres no point in having you take up space on my friends list if we dont even talk. Then there are others who do talk; however their vocabulary is limited and what they do say is incoherent. LOL. Well maybe i expect too much. But having high standards is not a bad thing. Otherwise you get trash. And i believe you get what you ask for. So i would rather do myself a favor and expect quality rather than trash. So therefore, i do have to be picky and analyze you to see what you are all about(men). But anyway, im still gonna do me regardless of what happens, b/c im the only one left in the end. So im gonna be self sufficient b/c god knows if you want something done right you better do it yourself. And if i dont do things for myself who will? LOL. It just seems like love always starts off nice and then ends in heartbreak for me. Thats why i feel as though i should just stay to myself. I mean is there even a point in believing in love anymore, it sure doesnt seem like it.

On a positive note, im continuing to grow so much. These days i almost scare myself with how truthful i am with people. I can be harsh. And i know it, but thats just me. besides what good does sugarcoating do anybody? Also for some reason people believe they can confide in me. And to tell the truth they are right. Because i tell the truth and im reliable. Im always there for my friends too. I never realized how wise i can be when im helping somebody else out, but when it comes to myself, i rarely listen to that same advice. I need to start practicing what i preach though. Everyday i learn something new and i need to try to use it to my advantage.

There are other things i wanna talk about but i just dont know how to put my thoughts into words on those particular topics or maybe i just dont want to go back to that place. However i will say that i never thought things would turn out the way they did. But i did grow immensely b/c of the outcome. I do wish that me and a certain person still talked. What can i do though? Its up to them. They have to take that first step. But yeah, thats about all i can think of...i know i have said this alot but its the truth. Well thats about it for today. See yall nxt wk. Peace, Joy, and Love