update

Wow i know its been a minute, but once again a sister has been very busy and i have alot on my mind so here goes.

1)Just when it seemed i was moving in the right direction, i got a "memo" so to speak and it really made me think, is this the right way to be? And i decided that it wasnt and that i should try yet another approach. But to tell the truth, as far as growth, i believe that it is inevitable that change will occur and you will have to neglect some bad habits and replace them with good ones. I never thought about it that way but thats the reality.

2)I really wish i had all the answers in life. Like do you ever wish that you could push some magic button or open a door and all the answers to the questions that you have will be answered? Well i do. Sometimes i get so lost. But i know if i keep my eye on the prize(success), and keep the faith, i will find my way.

3)I wonder why i cant really focus. It seems as though my mind is always preoccupied. I mean i have been keeping myself pretty busy as far as work and now im retaking this class. But, did it ever seem like you have something important going on but you're just not there mentally? Like it's like my mind went on vacation(maybe that could be a clue to why i havent wrote in so long LOL ;-) )

4)Did you ever think about why people say and do the things that they do? It's really weird. When i sit and think about it, it almost seems like half this world has no substance or coherent thoughts. And its also weird how people will ask you the dumbest questions that they should already know the answer to.

5) Do you ever feel like there are people in this world who's whole objective/purpose is to annoy you to no end? Well i know that feeling very well and trust me i live it everyday. And theres no escaping it unfortunately. Its a shame to say but these people make you feel happy that you have places to be everyday. They make those places seem like paradise, even though being there isn't that fun either. LOL.

6)I'm so excited that i have one of my best friends in the world back in my life. Even though we may have been through alot, i'm always there for him and vice versa and we got a bond that nobody can break. :-)

7) On another note, i met somebody wonderful but b/c of my "attitude" i may have scared them off. Hopefully not though. Its a shame that you dont recognize a good thing just because you're stubborn. Who knows where this could end up?

8)It'll be time for school again soon. It seems like i love being there and i consider it like my home away from home now. When i have work i hate being there, but when i dont i love it and to me its way better than being at home. I dont know about anybody else but i love the freedom i have there.

9)I hope i can get my license before school starts and maybe even keep working. I might stay at work, just to keep some chump change and b/c i have less classes but it still amounts to the same when you add in the extra stuff. idk we'll see how that goes, i dont wanna overwhelm myself.

10) In other news, i cant believe ill be the big 20 in 2 months. Needless to say ill probably be the only one who's still 19 when school starts :-(. I know im exaggerating but that's what it feels like. To me 20 represents so much like the fact that i have been around for 2 decades and that im not a teen anymore....but its not as great as being the big 21 thats the real one...you can do whatever then LOL.

11) I really need to keep up with this blog(and poetry and stories) but i get such a bad case of writer's block sometimes. I just dont know what to say. But like a friend of mine said, i should just continue to write from my heart b/c in reality this is not for you. This is how i vent and express myself, and if you wanna read it be my guest but it wont be the end of the world if you dont.

12)havent seen any good movies lately. But i do have a few new favs as far shows. I really like hawthorne seeing as im studying to become a nurse. And i like tiny and toya. IDk but lately shows like that just interest me. I guess im kinda nosy LOL.

13) Music: a few of my favs
a) pleasure p: the introduction of marcus cooper( i love like every song on here...def a banga)

b) musiq: on my radio( just as good, if not better than luv and musiq, another classic in my opinion)(know i said it already but i didnt elaborate LOL)

c) beyonce: i am......sasha fierce(full of hot songs...wish it was longer though)
Thats all i can think of for now.

14)So glad im off tomorrow. But i plan on being a lil productive LOL. Hopefully i am. Well see yall next wk. Peace Joy and Love