More thoughts from yours truly...♥

Hey yall. Im back again. Still busy as ever and during my day it seems like thoughts travel through my mind at warp speed. Well enough chit chat...here it is.

1) I know im young and there will be plenty of time for growth. And maybe, just maybe i'm thinking too far ahead. But i really truly feel as though i need to change some things about myself. For example i learned alot in the past few days; such as the fact that it is good to tell the truth but you must have some tact. Nobody wants you to sugarcoat but you don't have to be brutal either. Wow go figure; what i mean is this sounds like such a novel concept but i couldnt even put this thought together a couple of weeks ago. So i guess that shows growth. Another thing i need to learn is patience. It truly is a virtue that most people would do well with if they acquired it soon. LOL. Third of all, i really need to learn acceptance. It seems as though i have certain expectations and maybe even opinions about how things should go or how people should treat me. But in the long run, the truth is people can only be who they truly are and life is not Burger King, i cant have it my way. No matter how much i want to. Fourth, being nice seems so excruciatingly hard but i'm willing to try my hand at it again. Even towards people who dont deserve it because a friend of mines taught me that you should treat others how YOU would like to be treated and they'll look back and see what they missed out on and possibly regret it; the moral of the story is to be nice to others no matter how evil someone may have treated you b/c the next person doesn't deserve to be treated mean. So basically those are the things i need to get better at. And i know everybody has flaws and you can aspire to be perfect but in reality nobody will ever reach perfection except God himself. Thats just the way it is. But i still want to try my best to be a good person that God would be pleased with.(most of the time LOL)

2) Relationships are so hard man. But i truly am trying. I guess you really have to work to keep them alive if you dont wanna be alone. Sometimes it may seem like the better road but in reality its a sad one. On the bright side, it helps you grow when you're alone but there comes a time where being alone gets old and you want somebody by your side through thick and thin, who will never let you down. And in order for that to happen you have to open yourself up enough to be that same person for them that they can lean on when times are hard. You only get back what you put out, so maybe i need to change my way of thinking about things and what not.

3) Why do we have to look so good all the time but Some men can go around lookin like they fell off a garbage truck? I think i talked about this before. If those men would get their act together maybe i wouldnt mind lookin like i work on a runway more often LOL. However, there are Many exceptions out there. They look so good and they know it. I mean at least they know they gotta pull their weight in this competition called love LOL.

4) I really really wanna move out soon. Like hopefully before im 25. Its not like im in a rush to pay bills. I just want that indepedence and the ability to do things when i feel like it. I feel like im gettin just a lil bit too old to still have to have certain limitations i have at home. for real. If i keep on doing well in school, hopefully i can have everything i need and most of what i want and hopefully ill be able to survive on my own, god willing.

5) Im so tired of my mama always calling me. I feel like Florence in this house. I cant wait til school starts again. I love my dorm and it hurts to think that i might not be there if tuition gets too steep :-(. That place keeps me sane. I cant be home all semester. Hopefully i wont, if God is paying attention....

6)Songs i like :
mario ft sean garrett and gucci mane- break up

beyonce ft kanye west- ego rmx

drake ft trey songz- successful

mary mary- god in me

jayz ft rihanna and kanye west-run this town

7) well i gotta work tomorrow. but on the bright side, its payday and i get off before 12 LOL. I hope i get some more hours this week.

8) I really need to practice soon. I def need that scholarship.

9) Cant wait til im done this class. 2 more wks left.(4 classes to be exact)

10) Well gotta go now. be back with more next wk. Peace Joy and Love