~Melting Pot of Emotions~

I mean i really dont know what to say. I was heartless, and didnt let the small stuff phase me and told the truth in a harsh way. What did that get me? Nothin but told off by a lame that didnt even deserve me. I try to be nice and tactful and sweet again while still takin everything with a grain of salt and i still get bs handed to me. I guess it doesnt matter. Sometimes we get screwed over no matter what we do. Its just fate i guess. God has a plan for us and sometimes it doesnt go the way we want but theres a point to the madness at the end of the day; to teach us a lesson. I guess the lesson for me is to just be the best me i can be and dont worry about what people think. As long as i dont do nobody wrong, god will bless me in the long run. Thats what i gotta keep tellin myself. Otherwise i dont know what to think. At this point i would just rather work and go to school at the same time to keep myself busy...then i wont have to worry about losers wasting my time b/c there will be none left to waste. I really miss a couple of people in my life right now, however who knows if they even care about me at all? Thats what hurts the most. I try to put myself out there and it seems like i get burnt every time. I dont even care anymore. I got more important things to do anyway. Who needs love if this is what its like. :-( Well if anybody thinks that philosophy is way off...let me know why i should think differently. Deuces. Peace Joy and love.