Recap/UPDate

>> Recap of my first two years; Looking forward to the next two and beyond:

Well here I am at the end of my first two years of college. I can’t say that it was anything like I thought it would be. However, it sure wasn’t a disappointment. I have met so many amazing and diverse people. I have grown and matured so much. I have learned a lot too. One of the first things I learned was the skill of time management. Without that, I don’t think I would have survived these first two years. I also learned how to prioritize, which helped me get the most important things done first. I learned how to be organized and stay focused, which was one of the hardest things to do, believe me. I learned to be assertive and go after what I wanted. I learned how to be honest with myself and others. I learned how to work hard and not give up, even when I felt like there was no end in sight and the road ahead was dark. I learned how to trust in god and believe that he would guide me in the right direction and be with me through all my trials and tribulations. I learned how to be a friend in order to have a friend. I learned how to have fun and let loose a little bit. I learned how to be happy on my own. I learned how to be independent and strong, in order to do things for myself. I learned the importance of getting things done early, in order to avoid the consequences of not being punctual. I learned to be myself and trust that the right people would appreciate that, and that the people who didn’t like me didn’t matter. I learned to see things for what they are and not let small petty things faze me. I learned that sometimes in life you fall down, but if you get back up again, you aren’t a failure. The only way you can be a failure is if you don’t get back up. I also learned that nothing worth having comes easy, anything worth having takes hard work and determination. It has been such a fulfilling and exciting experience and im sure the 2 years I have left will be no different. Sure when finals week came up and all throughout the semester, my classes were very difficult and they tested my strength and my willpower, and they stressed me out more than I ever thought possible. But in the end, I know all that stress, and sleep deprivation, studying, and endless deadlines will be worth it. I also know that I will come out as a better person because of it.

++The next two years:
In the next two years, I hope that I will learn even more things. I hope that I will become even more mature. I hope that I will learn from my mistakes and realize that they aren’t set-backs, they are stepping stones to the future. I hope I will stay focused and continue to work hard to achieve my goals and strive to excel in all my classes. Also I hope that no matter what obstacles are placed in my way, I will overcome them. So, by the grace of god, all these things will come to fruition. I still can’t believe that I will be a junior in September. Those two years went by in a flash. I guess you don’t realize how fast things are going when you’re busy trying to pass your classes. I have met some amazing people who I consider friends and I hope we will still keep in touch after college. I have also taken some amazing classes and some not so amazing ones, but nonetheless, I will never forget all that I have been through.

+++++++++++++++UPdate++++++++++++++++++++

I’m back! LOL. I know I’ve been gone for a while. But yeah school has been hectic and very stressful. But I got through sophomore year and I’m proud of myself. I accomplished a lot this year too. I’m finally recovering. LOL. Im so tired and drained. But the upside is I only have 2 more years left. I have grown up so much and learned even more.
I have been thinking a lot lately. I have been thinking about love and life and where exactly they match up. For example, can you have a life without being in love, or vice versa? God made me see that he has all the love that I need. As long as I have his love, ill be okay. He also made me realize that in due time, when he sees fit, he’ll bless me with the right person that was made just for me and nobody else. Maybe the truth is that without love in your heart for something, there truly is no life. They go hand in hand. Like Jaz Sullivan says, “I can’t see a life without love”. And that’s true. So from here on out, I’m going to have love in my heart and live life to the fullest, doing what I love and I’m going to do my best to please God. I know there may be many obstacles in my way and there may be many things that I do that don’t please god, but I know in the end, if I ask for forgiveness and acknowledge that I was wrong, everything will be okay.

I have also been thinking about how strong you can be when the circumstances call for it. For example, there were a lot of times when I wanted to fall out from sheer exhaustion but because I saw the future, which has so many possibilities and so much to enjoy, I didn’t. I got back up again. But I wasn’t alone, I had God on my side; telling me that I was meant for a greater purpose and that I need to fulfill it. He also told me that whenever the path looks dark, he’ll be there to light the way. That and many other scriptures from the good book, gave me the strength to keep going. And because I didn’t lie down in the face of adversity, today I am a better person.

Another thing running through my mind is the fact that this year has been stressful. But as much as I want to lie down and do nothing, I’m going to be productive this summer. Just as I was productive this semester. I was in a poetry café, I performed twice;I did a solo and a group performance. I met a lot of interesting people. I did fun things. I learned a lot about myself and others. It was just a really good year. So this summer, I plan to learn how to drive(yeah I know what you’re thinking dag, she doesn’t have her license, but to yall I say, you try going to nursing school, when you’re in nursing school, all other desires must be put to the side LOL) , I plan to work and get this money together for books for next semester and splurge on me, and I plan to take a class, unfortunately :-(. Then, finally above all, I plan to grow even more and become a better person mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. The next two years are going to require some maturity, some will power, and hard work, so I better brace myself LOL.

Well as you can see, I have been through a lot, but it has truly helped me change for the better. Well I can’t think of nothing else to say. So I’m gone till next week, see yall :-). Peace, Joy and Love.