Reality

Its amazing how i always complain about how bored i am. When there really is so much that i could be doing. And i always complain about how my life isnt as exciting as it should be (in my opinion), but some people arent blessed to still be alive and well right now, while god has blessed me to be alive and relatively healthy. I take that as a sign, that my work here on earth isnt done and it probably hasnt even begun. I take that to mean that i need to stop wasting the time i do have, b/c tomorrow isn't promised and i should cherish every moment. I also interpret that to mean that brighter days will come and as i mature and become wise i will realize that it's okay that my life isnt movie worthy. I just need to get out there and enjoy it regardless. I dont really know where im going with this. but i have noticed lately that im just extremely bored and my mom has even pointed it out too, in one way or another. She stated that i need to"stop waiting for the next moment and just enjoy the present and make my life exciting". That seems sort of true, i guess. I have heard that you control your destiny, so you choose the path you travel on in life. You direct your future. You make things happen. So like i have said before i need to stop being on "autopilot" in my life and take charge and go after what i want and expect. Because if i learned one thing, nothing comes free or falls out of the sky, if you want something, you gotta earn it or make it happen. Its a cold world out here and everybody is out to better themselves and acquire some wealth of their own. So i need to wake up and smell the roses.

I guess in a way i have been taking life for granted and not appreciating what i have done and accomplished. I keep looking for the next moment or the next thing, instead of enjoying the present. However, in reality you cant turn back time, and trust me there are many times that i wish i could. I need to learn to just be and thank the lord above for every waking moment and for his mercy and grace. Well thats just how i was feeling at the moment, i had something else in mind, but...i think ill save that for friday. See yall later. Peace, Joy, and LOve.