Revelations....

Its so funny how i can be so naive sometimes.
So blind to reality.
Because sometimes i try so hard to see the good in people even though it might not even be there.
Im just too stubborn to realize the abundance of flaws that they have.
I need to grow up.
I need to learn from my mistakes.
Everything happens for a reason.
And like my friend said....you are supposed to use your experiences to learn and grow, you cant take the easy way out.
Life will throw you some curve balls but you just have to know how to manuever around them and not get hit the next time.
I just wish i could find a dude thats on my level.
Someone just as intelligent.
Who wants to be successful and do something with his life.
I was lying to myself and being stupid thinking he would change and get better if i gave him time.
We all know that was never going to happen.
If a man wants to change he will.
It has to be because he wants to.
You cant make a man do anything.
So i need to just do me and accomplish great things.
Then when the time is right...just like my friend said...the right person will come along.
A quote once said something like this: happiness is like a butterfly if you chase it , it eludes you, but if you wait for it to come your way it will stay.
I think thats true.
Its time for me to learn to be happy alone, because if you are not happy alone when will you be happy?
That means accepting my flaws and improving my strengths.
Because at the end of the day im more good than bad.
Im tired of waiting for someone else to acknowledge that.
Its time for me to realize that.
Another quote once said:everything will be okay in the end...if its not the okay then its not the end.
So im going forward, not looking back.
Its time to continue my journey.
Theres one thing i learned from this, never let a man stop you from growing or being who you were meant to be.
If he cant accept everything about you, then he dont deserve you.
Its a whole package deal.
he cant pick and choose.