Why?

I was so lost.
So naive.
So blind
So in love.
But now i see the reality.
But now im still in love.
But this is different.
I wanted to believe you so bad.
I wanted to love you and look past everything bad.
I wanted to be there for you.
But now its up to you.
Im subtracting myself from this equation.
You decide what you want.
I gotta do whats best for me.
I have made my decision.
I just cant believe that this is happening.
Its like the world is my enemy.
Nothing is going my way.
everything i believed in is a lie.
So now i gotta start from scratch.
I thought i was growing but now it feels like im going backwards.
I just wish you would love me and be with me or leave me alone.
Either tell me the truth or nothing at all.
ANd you wonder why i dont tell you nothing.
You dont tell me nothing but you want my life story.
This aint a one way street. You gotta meet me halfway.
It feels like im living a nightmare that never ends.
I thought you were different but i guess i thought wrong.
I should have gotten the hints...
I should have noticed the comparisons...
I should have noticed everything but i was so blind.
I love you but i dont know what to do or think anymore.
I just cant put myself through this.
It hurts too bad.
Its making me sad.
I need to be happy.
I put so much time in with you just for you to play me.
At least be man enough to tell me yourself.
Im really not feeling the secretaries...You have a mouth.
Use it and tell me how you really feel.
I try to tell you stuff now and its like whatever...
I mean whats the point?
Saying nothing worked better.
I guess you were right.
I just didnt want to believe you.
I loved you, scratch that, love you so much none of that matters.
I just want to be with you.
I only care about you.
When you want to talk and come correct, you know where to find me....
Until then i have no words for you...