a few more things you should know about ASJ/ i just wish i knew

>>ToDAyS NuMeRo UNO ISSue:

Okay heres a few more of my pet peeves and a few of my loves. (you know i have to keep it balanced)

1) First of all I just wanna to say im ECSTATIC that BarACK OBAMA is our president not just because hes black but because i believe he is the best man for the job. NOw let me get to the point: ALL yall HAters need to stop hatin you know who you are. HEs president. Yes, hes black, and hes going to make a difference so get over it and embrace him. It shouldnt be about his color it should be about the fact that hes different. hes tryin to make changes that will make the world a better place. you may disagree with them or you may agree, but ultimately people have to learn to respect the man. I know the main aggregate of haters cant relate so thats why you hate. You think thats he incompetent because of his color and you dont like change you want to stay complacent. However we, his supporters believe that he is competent regardless of his color so stop the drama.

2) I hate hypocrites. dont tell me that i shouldnt be doing something and you sit there and do it yourself. For example dont tell me what i should or shouldnt be eating because 1, you are not my mama and 2 thats not your place especially if you gon sit there and eat the same thing im eating. Just dont play yourself cause im not with it.

3) I hate when people act like its the end of the world because they have been through something. Alot of people go through things but usually (unless you have just been dealt a bad hand or did not play your cards right), it gets worse before it gets better. I believe that god will never put more on you than you can bear. You just have to keep the faith, keep your head up and keep praying. And listen up, having a pity party doesnt solve anything. But neither does pretending you are okay. Just talk to someone you trust and try to get through it just dont try to deal alone. regardless of how cold the world is there is one soul on this earth that genuinely cares about you and will listen and be there to help you through your situation. Do something about it, dont wallow in it or dwell on it. Take positive action. *believe me ive been low probably not at my lowest but ive been low so i can relate for the most part and i have 2 people in my life who always do this*

4) I hate when people act like they dont remember you when you were together for more than a month...I mean for real was i that bad that you erased me that quick and plus we email frequently? I guess all the time we spent and the kisses and the hugs meant nothing. I still wish you felt differently but i wish you the best.

5)I hate when people wont leave me alone. I mean sometimes people, especially me, need time to ourselves to just reflect, to just have some peace, solitude without any extra noise. I really enjoy that time when i do get it. Its really wonderful.

6) I hate the fact that people act like they wanna be your friend one day and the next they dont even speak. I mean either speak all the time or leave me be. I would rather have 1 good friend and a million and 1 enemies than have a million and one friends with 1 enemy. At least ill know who i can trust and depend on because the majority are fakes and the good people are one in a million really. they dont come along often. thats why i cherish my good true friends. (truthfully somedays it feels like i dont have anybody i can call a friend but i know that even my friends feel like that somedays too. i guess we all go through it and i guess it depends on how you define a friend. A friend to me is someone who loves you at your lowest and your highest and whos there for you regardless, someone you can tell anything and they wont tell the whole world, someone you go shopping with, visit all the time, spend holidays with, even maybe give them gifts (but friendship is a great gift itself !!LOL), just someone who cares when the rest of the world walks out, someone who gives great advice, someone who would sacrifice for you, someone who is true regardless of what happens. Thats a friend to me. I have a few of those. They know who they are. I guess its true that when you find a good friend hold on to them because they dont come around often.

7) I love having absolutely no tests....i love when school is over. Its so refreshin to know that the semester is over and you survived ( 1 more month and im done sophomore year fall semester!!)Its a great feeling. Then you learn so much and grow and the next semester you take that knowledge and excel and improve.

8) I love taking walks around campus. WHen its nice and quiet and the wind is blowing lightly. You can close your eyes for a brief moment and take a deep breath. You can think about everything and think about nothing. Its just you and its so peaceful. Its truly an escape. I love being out in the open air. Its the best. Especially when things are getting to you and need a break.

9) I love going home. I may have already said this but yeah. even though the minute i get there i miss being at school cause i get to be independent and free. But i will admit that i miss my big bed at home. Its so much better compared to these lil xl twins. LOL. I also miss my mamas cooking. Its the best. I miss my daddy too. LOL I guess im a daddys girl at heart. I mean sometimes you need that support you need that reassurance and nowhere else can you feel so secure and safe and loved but at home. especially when i been down or my workload is stressing me out.

10)I love being here at school. Its not the greatest but uh i manage. Its just that i feel so much independence and freedom here. i can do whatever i want. and i dont have to wash dishes thats such a bonus! LOL

11) I love life, despite the ups and downs im blessed to be alive.

12) Finally I love my boo...despite what he might think i really do care about him and im always thinkin about him. he makes me happy he makes me smile. he makes me laugh. i feel so good when i talk to him. thats how it is. he has my heart i dont know why but no matter what happens i still care. ♥

++ToDAYS numero dos issue:

I just wish i knew

Why you felt like you do.

You mean so much to me.

WHy cant you just see?

That i love you for who you are.

My love for you has me up in the stars.

You are such a good man.

ANd i just know that god has a plan.

You just gotta keep your head up.

You just gotta hold on.

I know you can do it.

You are so strong.

I know you have been through a lot.

But you are all that i got.

So please baby keep trying.

So what you are doin isnt working.

Try something new.

You might discover that you like it too.

I love you so much.

I just want you to be happy.

I just want you to stop feeling crappy.

I want you in my life.

I want to be your wife.

I know you are the one for me.

You make me oh so happy.

So baby keep on trying.

I know you can do it.

With gods help and my faith.

I know we can make it through this.

Dedicated to my boo He knows who he is.♥