things on my mind....♥

Okay so i finally got to see the love of my life. And i have to say it was pure bliss. I didnt want him to leave. It was the best. I just love being in his presence. He always makes me feel so good. But then out of nowhere he always has to screw it up just a little bit. Like i know its petty but i expect you to call me at least once a day. I mean so at least ill know you are alive and well even if we only talked for a millisecond. It just hurts when he ignores my calls all day and then he finally answers and he cant even talk. He just doesnt know how much i love him. He dont know how many times, just like right now, when i should be doing my work im thinkin about him or listening to a song that makes me think about him. He doesnt know that i smile when i think about him. He doesnt know that i love him for who he is not what he has. Because if that was the case i wouldnt still be with him. It just feels natural when im with him. i dont have to try hard. Of course its gon take some getting used to, i mean with us finally hangin out and all im gon have to get used to how he operates. I just hope i get the chance to get used to him. To know things that nobody else knows. To anticipate things to feel good when he feels good and feel for him when hes low. I just want to know him inside and out.(no pun intended, LOL) I just want to be that one for him. I think i already am. All i know is i love him and i really wish i could hang with him like everyday. When i was with him i forgot all about what i had to do when i got back to my room. I forgot where i was for a minute. I didnt have a headache anymore. I was cheesing like the whole time. He calms me down. He makes me feel so good. Im just so happy to have him in my life and i dont want to ever let him go. I wished he coulda spent the night. (LOL) I really did enjoy chillin with my bookie butt... LOL (thats what we call each other LOL ). I love him. Thats all i can say. There are no more words.